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Hello, wonderful world! :)
I think that I'm going to start a new blog, but for tonight this is going to do.
I read through a few of my old posts. One word, WOW! Was I depressed. These last few months have been hard and trying, but here I am still alive and more RadIaNt than ever. Something that I have learned from all that I've been through; that in the toughest of times, when I'm down so low that I can't even see light, I make it. I make it through, and not only do I make it through, but it takes me to a better place in life. BUT something that I don't normally do is make it truly through. I usually get side-tracked. I usually find something temporary, something short-term to take my mind off of feeling the pain. I think that it's right at the time, but it's really not. It feels good. It is a temporary high. Temporary being the key word. Short-term healers don't work out long-term, but they sure do a good job at distracting. SO this time what I am doing is NOT going AROUND, but FEELING this pain that I need to feel. I need to feel this to get me to where I want to be. I don't need something to temporarily make me feel good. I actually don't NEED anything at all. (Well okay, shush, besides food, water, air, and shelter, OH and thank you, Anatomy, pressure. (Yes, we also need pressure to survive.)) Okay, ADD, back on track.. I am going THROUGH this obstacle course this time, not around. I am feeling this. I am feeling the hurt, the anger, the sadness, the loneliness. And I am surviving. I will one day find what I want, and it will all be worth it. I know that this is temporary. These feelings that I feel are not permanent, and with time will fade into a healed wound. But, the thing is that it will actually be healed, not sidetracked, not scabbed waiting to be ripped off, but healed. .. Oh what I have already learned about this life at my young age. I know heart break. I know sadness. I know sorrow. I know loneliness. I feel like without knowing these that I could not truly appreciate the other side of the spectrum. So thank you to everyone that has tried to break me, whether purposely or not. Thank you for pushing me higher.
....Wowzie, I can't believe you're still reading this. I should research techniques on keeping peoples' attention during blogging, because all that I do is poor my heart out onto this worn-out keyboard.

Anywhos:) So here I am.
I am keeping my current job, which rocks.
I just applied for a couple waitressing jobs for the summer. (As a 2nd job)
I am going to lay out and go to the beach all summer. :D .. oh and a few other places;)
I enrolled in a summer class yesterday.
My goal is to get into the LPN program in the Spring semester, then transition to RN.
Or go straight into the RN program in a year from this Fall semester.
Either way, I am right on track with my grades.
The Teas I am nervous as sh*t about, but have faith and confidence that it will work out.
I am full time this Fall semester, when I will be completing all of my pre-reqs for nursing.
I am currently apartment shopping.
Trying to figure out whether to live in Indy or Lafayette.
Going to live by myself, FINALLY! :):)
Taking my two kitties and once I find a place, will get a puppy.
So excited to decorate my own place though.
And have all my friends over. ;)

I am currently obsessed with my Wii. I have got 2 games within the last week and have beat them. I play almost constantly if I'm not with my friends or at work. I am a nerd, I know. :)
Don't make fun, but been contemplating buying WoW. Reallllllly enjoy that game.
Am currently saving my money for a Mac. Can you even play WoW on a Mac? I guess I should look into what kind of gaming systems they are.


Randomsidenote: I about pee-ed my pants twice tonight. NoNoNo, not because I can't control my bladder, but because I was laughing too hard. I am surrounded by such amazing people. :)


Okie dokie, jokie.
I think that you and I have had enough for tonight.
Thanks for reading.
Stay safe usually is my motto, but been considering changing it to 'Have fun!'
So with that,

Have fun!
.....maybe try to stay safe while doing so. :)



P.S. Some wonder how I still believe in love, but I despite their wonders I am still a firm believer.