PLEASE someone try and help me figure out what is inside my head.
I feel weird today. I've been feeling weird a lot lately. Is my mind trying to tell me something? I can't figure it out. I'm scared shitless. And I am overly excited at the same exact time. Are you going to leave me again? A risk I'm taking. I just hate remembering what you did to me. How I felt. Now this doubt is inside my head that I'm going to be there again someday. Will you do it to me again? I mean you didn't think that you would the last time, and yet you did. I'm going crazy. Trying to refocus. I still feel pain. You're not even around. I miss you. I feel like that's what our relationship consists of. Missing each other.
You touch me in a way that no one else can. That no one else ever has. Your smile can make all my worries disappear. Your touch can make my knees weak. Your presence can make my stomach flutter. Your words steal my heart away. I have never loved someone so intensely. I am so afriad of losing this again. I'm so afraid that it's going to fall away again. Everything just change again. I'm so scared tonight.

Song on repeat: Justin Timerlake "Another Song(All Over Again)"
You've been alone, you've been afraid
I've been a fool
In so many ways
but I would change my life
If you thought you, might try to love me
So please give me another chance
To write you another song
And take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over,
Again
I'm not a saint
I'm just a man
Who had heaven and Earth
In the palm of his hand
but I threw it away
So now I stand here today asking forgiveness and if you could just please
Give me another chance
to write you another song
And take back those thing's I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over
AgainLittle girl you're all I've got.
Don't you leave me standing here once again?
'Cause I'll give you my life
Yes I would.
If you would let me try to love you
So please give me another chance to write you another song and take back those thing's I've done
'Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over
Again
Again, oh,no no ohh
You know I love you, yeah
give me one more chance
No no, no no no no