Feels so [good]

YoYoYo!

Big day today. I know I've talked before about how I feel like I realize a lot of stuff about myself every day, well hot damn sam was today a day!! I have lost all the life inside of me recently. Seriously. I feel like all of my personality, all of what I was made of was just power sucked right out of me for some reason. I used to be all smiles, all laughs, all giggles. For the last few months I've just been all sally sissy pants, blah! DUMB! haha. Ohhh---Emmm---Geee. I FEEL AMAZING! I have missed myself so much. I have let so many negative emotions take over me. So much stuff that I am not. I was so lost. I let go of myself. I turned into someone I did not even know. Someone I definitely was not happy with being. WOWZIE, do I feel loads better at this exact moment. I am happy. I am cheerful. I am human. And I am me. I am unbelieveably ready to go at my life full force and just take it as it comes.
I have had great challenges in front of me. Being around negativity, anger, hate, jealousy every day. Living with this. It's okay now though, because I have found myself and am holding on this time. I control me. I am where I am in my life and this is what I have to work with. I still have control over how I react to the situation though. This is what I have chosen.
I am funny.
I am happy.
I laugh.
I smile.
I live.
I know how to appreciate these feelings because I have felt the other.
I have found myself.
Today I have done this.
Thank you, Lord.
Thank you to everyone that has helped me through this rough patch in my life.

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